I did it, I feel grateful for someone else! via /r/gratitude

I sometimes feel ashamed confiding in this subreddit and expressing that I don’t feel gratitude towards my family, my partner, my home, etc; it’s something that can easily be twisted by the perception of another person. Lifelong depression took that ability away from me.

After a tumultuous 2024, I finally was able to take a day to “relax”. I woke up and decided to relax. I read a novel in bed, and ate a little junk food without worrying too much.

Around halfway into that time, I visited my partner and broke down. I think I felt lonely without understanding it. I’m trying to get a grasp of my feelings and reign in my low emotional processing ability, but… today, I think I really did feel grateful for my partner.

I found myself smiling more. Saying thank you and almost tearing up. Appreciating the presence of another person. Although my brain can hardly conceptualize why I feel this way, feeling numb to the notion that I even felt this to begin with, I want to celebrate.

I’ll keep trying, and hold onto this feeling. I’m grateful my partner is in my life. I really wouldn’t be the same person otherwise.