Christmas movies via /r/gratitude

I haven’t been able to watch Christmas movies since I last saw my birth kids and my mom. That was a little over five years ago. Watching them would always trigger memories with them and make me spiral into dark thoughts. But yesterday I watched Christmas with the Kranks without crying or spiraling. Last night I watched Ghostbusters and did ok. Instead of feeling like I hate myself and crying because I miss them so much I was able to open up with my hubby a little bit and share some funny memories. I was able to appreciate what I used to have and wish them all well. I'm grateful for Christmas movies because they brought me one step closer to healing.