Grateful that I’m still here today via /r/gratitude

I had major depression for a few years and I hated every second of living. I was constantly depressed and I would often find myself thinking of ways to kill myself without anybody knowing. I was struggling with addiction and I was depressed because of it. I hated myself for living like that and I SH myself a lot because of it.
I have scars all over my arms and shoulders and I have never worn a short shirt because I was too worried someone would ask me where my scars came from. Every day I would try to convince myself to go one more day alive
I finally gave up one day and attempted to end it.
On my way to end it someone stopped me from doing it.
I was miserable for a few days after that knowing that someone knew I was suicidal and could barely bear the thought to live.
Eventually my suicidal thoughts started to leave and I was able to break free from self harm
Today is my 300th day free from self harm and I also just wanted to say please don't worry I am not suiciadal anymore
I still get depressed but it is a lot better than what it used to be.