Grateful to be selfish via /r/gratitude

I’m experiencing a dark night of the soul and a lot of it has been healing trauma. Mourning the seemingly loss of my family and former life but for the first time I’m putting myself first and I just had a long hard cry 😭 and I felt love. I love myself so much. I used to try to save everyone at my own expense, but now I sit here and I look back on who I am and what makes me me. I’m simply incredible. Simple radiant . I am life itself. Fear and anxiety sneaks in a lot and tells me the opposite. That I need people, money, etc. But at every stage in my life I was always able to emit that joy. Emit that pure God energy. I was looking for my divine nature and I have only to look within. My ego wants validation from others. Truthfully these others couldn’t validate a fly. So with healing I’m learning that I can not seek myself outside myself and that I truly AM ENOUGH. I’m not good enough. I AM , ENOUGH!